So this is going to be my outlet for the frustration I am feeling from being a diabetic.

I have been a diabetic for twelve years now and just a little more than a month ago went to see a new doctor at the University of Chicago hospitals. They talked with me and set me up and now I am completely insulin dependent. For the past twelve years I have been very angry with the disease and have gone as far as to stop taking my medicine for short periods of time. I don't eat sugar but also wanted to eat the carbs. This time I have come to a point in my life when I realized that I want to live. So I'm doing all the right things and counting the carbs. I have to count the carbs for each meal then check my sugar and take my insulin according to what those numbers are. Every day, every hour, I have to think about this in order for me to live.

This may sound like I'm going to use this blog to complain about how hard and horrible my life is, but I don't want that. I just want people to know that diabetes isn't only about not only eating sugar. It's not ALWAYS that simple. It's not always about just watching what you eat.

So now I'm experiencing highs and lows and my body is not handling it well. When my sugar is just right, I don't feel well because my body is not use to it being so normal. But when I hit the lows, I can't see, can't think straight I can't even drive right now because I don't know if this will happen when I'm behind the wheel.

So before I go on and on, that's it for now.