Well another day another struggle. Woke up tired and drained. Got up and did my daily routine like I always do in the same order because it keeps me sane. Wake up, got dressed, smoke a cigarette, take my sugar, take my insulin, feed the dogs, eat my breakfast.

Maybe I'm a little OCD about certain things but I like a certain order to my life. It helps me remember to do certain things everyday. You see, this is my life with diabetes right now. It's my survival. I have to do these things to live. I don't want to have to and I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemies.

It sucks. My Doctor even told me straight "look, this disease sucks, but we're gonna help you". I've gone through a little depression since I've been going through this. It just gets you down. I want to feel better and it's been slow going. I have a good support group within my family so it's makes it easier that you don't feel so alone going through this.

Maybe this will be therapeutic and maybe other diabetics will see there are not alone in their struggles. Maybe people will realize that diabetes is not a joke about "do you want some cake? Oh, sorry I forgot, but this cake is delicious".